Thanks post 2006

When I created this blog, I was excited to fill it up with entries of bitterness, hatred, and anger towards the world. Ironically, fate decided to twist my life around and make me... happy. That's right. I am happy. As dull and mundane as my life currently is, I am just glad that all the drama that high school had is now gone. All the pressure and constant thought of being a failure is no longer lingering in the back of my mind. Now I am starting new and am actually doing pretty well. I will probably go through my first semester of college with at least a 3.0 GPA.. probably higher. :) I am getting along with my family (cousin and father), I am just grateful for the friends I have, and school, well like I said, I'm pretty satisfied. So much for bitterness, anger, and hatred. -_-'

Hah.. and my first or second entry was about what, seeking happiness and it's definition? x) I'm pretty sure this isn't really what happiness is, but I'm glad and content with myself and life. This entry is basically an entry of thanks and appreciation to my friends. It will be personal and something I hope that everyone will do once in their life. Just to let the people you love know that you do love them. It sounds corny and dumb, but it's the only way I can show that I am thankful for them.

Lam: My best friend. Every time I thank you I tell you, "I know I'm short tempered, stubborn, (insert bad qualities I have), but thank you so much for being there for me" And I'm sure those who knows me, knows how bad my flaws are, but you get the brunt of it and I apologize. It's just that people tend to lash out on those closest to them, despite their best intentions. I don't do it purposely, but I am thankful that you stick around me even though I do it to you. I know you don't understand what I went through senior year, but you calling and trying to help me was good enough. It really was a tough year for me, and to this day I beat myself over the head for how dumb I was, but you trying to help me was all I needed, and it was good enough. :) Thank you for constantly being there for me.

Sam: My ex-door neighbor and other best friend. I'm always at a loss of how much I owe you and how thankful I am towards you and your family. You guys really helped me out a lot and I don't know what I would've done without you guys. I mean, for a long time I felt hopeless and felt like I would never get along with my father and without you guys, we wouldn't be where we are now. My grateful-ness and appreciation for you is beyond words. Despite your busy schedule, you always make time to meet up with me whenever you could, and just having you as a constant in my life has been great. :) I'm so glad that you guys decided to move to OUR apartment building. Because if you didn't, I honestly don't know where I would be.

Harriet: You're the only person I know that actually understands what I talk about sometimes. That time, when you hugged me, it honestly changed everything for me. Hopefully you'll know what I'm talking about, but during a time when I felt completely hopeless and lost, you really just helped me out when I really needed someone. You and Lam are the people I talk to when it comes to being cynical and completely bitchy. It makes life fun lol. It also makes us bitter, but whatever. Haha. We should be granted with that after what life threw at us. x) Your honesty sometimes takes me aback, but its your honesty that makes me respect you. And truth be told, respect is all that everyone really needs. =) Although I know you think the chances of us being friends till we're old are slim, I honestly believe that those chances are more likely to happen between our group of friends, than anyone else in the world. :) And for that, I am so glad that I got to meet you and the others.

Jennifer: You gay gay gigantic boobs woman. :) Your ability to empathize and just comfort people is amazing. Your hugs are like heal-o-matic or something dude. Thank you for just letting me chill at your house whenever. x) I practically kick off my shoes and put my feet on your coffee table as if it's my own house. But its because you welcome people and make them feel like you're their sister that makes me do this. And I thank you for doing everything you've done for me. Feeding me. Driving me. Don't let your parents make you unhappy, but also don't do things to make them unhappy, because we both know that you got it made. Lol. And its because of them that you got it made. Just know that you always have me and FWAZ to support you whenever you have trouble getting along with your blood family, because FWAZ, is and will always be your second family. :)

Deanna: It's been a long time since we've been friends. What I respect most about you is that no matter what people say, you never waver from the position you stand. You try to be as unbiased and fair as you possibly can and you really helped me out this summer when I was confused and frustrated. You're the only other person I know that is as weird as me.. lol but in a different way. You make me laugh that others can't and I know you get frustrated with me sometimes, so I apologize, but just know that I love you and care about you. :) You know you can always fall back on us when you're in trouble or need help.

Amy: I love talking to you because it's always fun. x) haha. Licking you will always be my favorite pasttime =p I now know how to "control" you if that's even possible. I know that I can always count on you when I need you, and its this comfort that makes me glad I have you and everyone else as my friend. I want you to know that you can always talk to us and count on us no matter what. :) Don't let the past stop you from doing so. It's because of our friendships that make me so happy and glad with my life, and you being one of those people just makes me even more grateful. :) So thank you soo much. :)

Long: The only other person that argues with me as much as you do is Lam. But the only problem is.. is that our arguments are LEGIT! You fool! haha. She doesn't pick fights with me on purpose! =p But I know you're just doing it for fun because you're bored sometimes and that's the only way I entertain you. So you can always argue with me whenever you want. Haha. I honestly never thought I would be good friends with you, but now I'm glad that I'm friends with you because you're honestly a really good friend. :) Thanks for hanging out with me and inviting me to places. :) It makes me feel less lonely =p haha j/m

Ryan: !!!! We've come a long way since pokemon chat. LMAO x) You're the first net friend I ever met and I am so happy that I got to meet you! x) You've always been there for me when I needed to talk to someone and when I'm EXTREMELY bored late at night when absolutely no one else is online. -_-' lol. I just hope that I'm a good friend too =/ I know I'm not sometimes, but yea, I'm working on that. :) (Btw... you're EXTREMELY tall =p) haha, but yea. Thank you for listening to rant and talk about stupid things.. x) Your patience is amazing sometimes that it just makes me wonder if you're truly human =p haha. But yea, thanks for everything you do for me. :)

Robbie: My first guy best friend. I will always remember you no matter what happens and I am so thankful I got to meet you. We've been through a lot of things and the constant of having you in my life for the past 7 years is something I know I can always count on. :) Talking to you and knowing that I can count on you no matter what makes me glad that I have you as a friend. Even though we don't get to talk that often, I'm glad when we could. :)

So yea, there's my thanks post, to the people who I am really thankful for. :) Hopefully I didn't forget anyone.. besides my family. x) but yea. :) Thanks to you people. =) you guys are the reaosn why I am so happy with my life right now. :)